Diary of a Mad Asian Boy
For all Tyler Perry fans, you should be familiar with the title. I recently watched _Diary of a Mad Black Woman_ and it really hit a nerve.
There's a line in the film where the main protagonist's mother says something along the lines of, "Just forgive him. If you don't forgive him, he'll always have a sort of power over you." I have to say that it's true. If you're mad at someone, it really does seem like they have some sort of 'power' over you. All you can seem to think about is them, and all your actions are caused by them.
I'm sick of being angry all the time. At the age of thirteen, I should be out, exploring new possibilities, but I'm stuck in my own little world, being bitter at all the feuds that I've gotten into the past few years. Thirteen year old boys shouldn't even be able to experience the amount of rage I've had pent up for a while. I should really get a punching bag...
Aside from my anger issue, I also have a tendency to push friends away. It seems I have some sort of magnetic field that surrounds me, also repelling people away from me. It does come in handy when I'm trying to avoid some people though.
I've decided to try to be a more forgiving person, not just for me, but for the people around me. When I'm in a bad mood, I usually take out my anger on someone, and they usually end up with their feelings hurt. Also because I don't want to end up becoming a bitter old man who yells at innocent kids accidentally stepping on his lawn.
So from today, August 22nd, 2007, everyone that's ever done anything to me has been forgiven. I've decided it's best to start anew and let go of grudges. Everyone deserves a second chance.
This entry was posted on August 22, 2007 at 05:44 PM and is filed under Personal,.